My Health Scare

The Transcript

Hey again! I want to explain, to everyone about a recent personal experience for numerous reasons but mostly because I know that people will resonate with what I'm about to say. I'm just gonna get straight into it… Recently I had a routine mammogram ,and yes, it's the thing that we do when we turn a certain age and it came back that they found a lump in one of my breasts.

I got this call probably 27th of December, a few days after Christmas, and because I live in a regional town I needed to go to the city, I needed to fly to Perth and and have a follow up test to basically determine what's actually going on, what it is and yep what is the next step.

I got this call a few days before I'm about to get on a plane to go to Europe for four weeks so there was no way that I could get in to the breast clinic before going to Europe and so then and there I had to schedule an appointment to have the biopsy upon my return after four weeks of being away.

So you can imagine in those four weeks that was away, every opportunity in my mind is always going to

“What's actually in here?”
”What's what's in my breast?”
”What is this lump and what's going to happen?” “Where is it going to lead?”
”Have I got cancer?”
”Is this the start of it?”

“What have I done wrong?”

Every ache and pain or physical discomfort that I felt in that area, immediately my mind went there. Oh and let me also say that this is me, this is while I’m a psychic medium and I know events for other people and that’s what I do for a living! But remember I’m on a journey of self. I’ve made a deal with my people and my guides that I don’t want to know but I want to experience it.

I guess I’m in for a big experience and a real life experience and lessons right now, so this is not far from my thoughts during every minute of those 4 weeks.

I can’t know too much because that’s what I’ve asked for. I’ve asked not to be shown too much rather than just living through, I also know that whatever is happening, whatever is unfolding inside of me right with this lump that’s been diagnosed, it’s happening for a reason.

The psychic part of me knows enough to know this is where it gets complicated. I don’t know the end result, but I know bits and pieces about my journey. So straight away I started feeling into it and I knew that okay, this is going to be an experience and this experience will not kill me… I will not die of this. But how much of an experience am I going to have I do not know.

Is it going to be okay?

Go and have a second mammogram, it gets checked you’re given the all clear, see you in two years or is it going to be have a second mammogram, gets checked, sit and wait.

Have an ultrasound, have that checked, sit and wait. Have a biopsy have that checked, sit and wait and see what happens and treat the results if it is diagnosed with cancer.

So I knew this was going to unfold. My European Vacation finishes I come back to Perth and I sit and wait for the appointment which is 8:00 am on a Monday morning.

I go in and I’m one of the first people there and that’s when it hits me. It hits me that I’m actually at a breast clinic being recalled for a lump in my breast.

But what’s going on?
Let me go back in time for you now.

The previous six months I had just gone through were of emotional heartbreak. My divorce was finalised, and that in itself took a lot of energy and a lot of ups and downs. I also met a man and fell head over heels in love with this man, so at the end of that six months, which was the middle of last year, I ended that relationship. So then I was on the 6 month journey of heartbreak, trying to mend my broken heart and unpack and decide and decipher what was going on emotionally for me.

All the while juggling my career and my household, my children and friendships and everything else that life throws at us right? I knew I could feel that my heart was broken and I didn’t understand how to fix that.

So, fast forward 6 months and now I have been diagnosed with a lump in my breast and here I am at the clinic and going through the procedures and for me it’s like, okay, I know that yep it’s going to be something and I’m going to experience this and it’s just going to be how much of an experience I have.

So I go through the day and basically they have to do a biopsy which is an experience in itself and that was physically painful for me and my heart goes out to all the women who have experienced that, and all the women who are yet to experience it, but hopefully, what I’m about to share can help all the women who are yet to experience it in some way.

I have the biopsy and I go back to my hotel room and then I come back home to my country town and I wait for the results and again, I know enough with my abilities and my gifts, I know that this is not going to kill me. But I still don’t know how much of an experience I am in for.

Has the day in the breast clinic been the experience? Is that what I’m taking from this?

Sitting next to women whose heads have been shaved, who have undergone treatment? Sitting with women whose stress levels are through the roof because of the uncertainty that’s going on with them? Because they, like me, have been recalled and they’re waiting to work out what’s actually going on. So yes, my heart goes out to all of those women.

So I’m back in my hometown and I am waiting for this result, and I know that it’s going to be something and where to next?

Is this cancer?
Is this something?

Have I got to go on a course of treatment or has the biopsy taken out enough?
And is there enough there to give me a benign result?

So look, at the end of the day, my results were benign. All six samples came back negative and I can say that I’m all clear now for two years and I’ll go on to routine checks but if I can prompt anyone, just go and get checked soon as you know the time is right. You will know when that time is, you will know when you’re of an age to do it, so start doing it. Don’t dismiss it because for me, I knew I was expecting that little reminder letter in the mail before it came. And when it came I opened it and I put it on my desk and it would always pop into my head

“Go and get it checked”
”Go and get it checked”
”Go and get it checked”

Don’t dismiss your intuition okay when you know something’s not right.

Go if that reminder letter turns up for you and don’t put it off. Everything happens for a reason to help you get through this, but what I’m saying is that yes, my results were negative and I’ve been given the all clear for now, but my question was always why?

Why did this happen? And the doctors and the specialists couldn’t answer that because there’s no criteria, there’s no critical “you did this so that’s why you got a lump” It’s just absolutely unknown… and those were the doctor’s words. She said “We don’t know Petula, we don’t know what causes this”

So my advice to you is get things checked, but also, I’m going to bring this back to your trapped emotions and what’s going on emotionally inside your body that is going to come out in lumps and bumps and other diseases. Deal with those. Sit with those and unpack them.

It took me 6 months to unpack the heartbreak of a broken relationship and once I’d made peace with it, I know now I’d made peace with it, this lump was diagnosed and then it was removed and it was benign. Please, I’m just turning back this example from emotional pain resulting in physical ailments and physical outcomes. So let’s deal with the emotions, let’s get it out, let’s unpack it and let’s talk things through so they don’t sit with us and fester and show up in all different ways that are unexplained in the medical world.

If I can be of support to anyone on this, please let me know your journey. Because it took me on a ride and yeah I got the experience. I would never have really thought about this connection had it not been for this experience, so yeah I’m here.

Let me know your thoughts

Petula xx